City of Eclipses - Secondary

Lyrics: Something moves beneath the surface Something I refuse to name Before I even feel the fracture I'm already feeding flames A split-second spark in a crowded mind I draw conclusions before I find The truth beneath the sharpened edge Another word I can't unsay I hear a threat inside a question Turn uncertainty into aggression The room goes narrow, my pulse ignites I turn a shadow into a fight Is it anger? Or something underneath? Am I fighting what you've said Or what I'm terrified it means? I FEEL IT RISING! BEFORE I KNOW ITS NAME! A SECONDARY FIRE FROM A WOUND I CAN'T EXPLAIN! AND EVERY TIME I LOSE MYSELF I LEAVE ANOTHER SCAR BEHIND! I'M TRYING TO FIND THE MOMENT BETWEEN THE FEELING AND THE FIGHT! My thoughts accelerate and collide A thousand possibilities, none benign I read rejection in the silence Mistake uncertainty for violence A nervous system dressed for war Still guarding what it guarded before But every battle that I manufacture Leaves another piece of trust in fracture There's a difference between danger And the memory of its sting I can feel my body screaming Without believing everything I FEEL IT RISING! BEFORE I KNOW ITS NAME! A SECONDARY FIRE FROM A WOUND I CAN'T EXPLAIN! AND EVERY TIME I LOSE MYSELF I LEAVE ANOTHER SCAR BEHIND! I'M TRYING TO FIND THE MOMENT BETWEEN THE FEELING AND THE FIGHT! Stop Listen What's beneath it? Fear? Shame? Something I won't admit? My hands are shaking My vision's thin The war outside Was born within WHAT AM I REALLY FEELING? SECONDARY! THE FIRE IS NOT THE SOURCE! SECONDARY! I STILL HAVE A CHOICE! I CAN FEEL THE PRESSURE! I CAN FEEL THE PAIN! BUT I DON'T HAVE TO TURN IT INTO SOMEBODY ELSE'S SHAME! I FEEL IT RISING! BUT NOW I KNOW ITS NAME! THE ANGER IS THE SIGNAL NOT THE HAND UPON THE FLAME! AND EVEN WHEN MY BODY TRIES TO DRAG ME BACK INSIDE I'M LEARNING THERE'S A MOMENT BETWEEN THE FEELING AND THE FIGHT! The first thing that I feel Isn't always what I mean I can hear the fire calling But I don't have to feed it.