Overclocked P2

You think the worst part is the noise? Nah. It's when everything finally gets quiet. Because then... You start hearing the shit you've been avoiding. Every mistake. Every regret. Every promise you couldn't keep. Every fucking thought you buried... Because you were too scared to think. Tick. Tick. Tick-tick. Tick-tick-tick. YOU'RE NOT THINKING FAST ENOUGH. I'm an overcomplicated, overstimulated, Overmedicated metaphor for everything I hated, Overanalyzing every situation till I make it Into something so catastrophically convoluted I can't face it! I'm a manic mechanic with a mind made of panic, A mechanical animal, psychologically damaged, Got a tactical habit of attacking the static, With a rapid-fire vocabulary verbally automatic! I got a pathological pattern of panic, A habit of having a catastrophic reaction, To practically anything happening randomly, Magnifying microscopic problems dramatically! I gotta recalibrate, retaliate, renovate, All of the neurological damage I generate, Meditate, hesitate, hyperventilate, Trying to eliminate everything I exaggerate! OVERCLOCKED! I'M RUNNING OUT OF ROOM! MIND FULL OF SIRENS, EVERY THOUGHT GOES BOOM! OVERCLOCKED! WATCH THE CIRCUITS GLOW! I CAN RUN FROM THE WORLD, NOT THE WAR IN MY SOUL! I'm a walking contradiction with a vicious disposition, Got a thousand inhibitions fighting twenty ambitions, Every vision is a prison when your mind is the warden, And you're serving a sentence for the future you're ignoring! I'm aggressively addressing all the stress I've been suppressing, But the second I express it, I'm obsessing over whether I delivered the confession with the proper fucking message, Now I'm stressing about stressing and I'm back inside the pressure! I'm a hyperactive, counterproductive, self-destructive, Overfunctioning, compulsive, psychologically disruptive, Overthinking, never blinking, always sinking, never quitting, Every second, second-guessing every second that I'm living! FUCK! I been running from the person that I was when I was younger, Trying not to let the hunger turn the thunder into anger, But the anger feeds the hunger and the hunger feeds the pressure, And the pressure makes me wonder if I'll ever fucking measure! Up! Enough! To the person I imagined when I promised I would change, But the image keeps evolving while the goal remains the same, And the same becomes a cycle and the cycle becomes pain, And the pain becomes a pattern and the pattern builds a cage! And I rattle every bar with every syllable I spit, Trying to shatter every part of every limitation built, But the harder that I'm pushing, the more friction that I get, Till the engine starts to scream and every circuit starts to split! I'M NOT A FUCKING MACHINE! I'M A PERSON WITH A PULSE! WITH A MIND THAT NEVER RESTS! AND A HEAD THAT WON'T SHUT UP! I GOT DEMONS IN THE DETAILS! GOT A WAR INSIDE MY SKULL! AND THE ONLY THING I'M FIGHTING IS THE FEAR OF LOSING CONTROL! But I ain't gonna surrender to a simulated threat, Or a hypothetical disaster that ain't even happened yet, I can separate the fiction from the facts inside my head, I can recognize a thought without believing what it says! I'm the operator, not the operation, I'm the architect despite the complications, I can feel the fucking fear without obeying its persuasion, I can break a mental pattern without breaking my foundation! So accelerate! Elevate! Never let the pressure dictate! Every little fucking decision that I make! Let the motherboard shake! Let the circuitry quake! I can run at full capacity and STILL control the brakes! OVERCLOCKED! BRAIN ON FIRE, CAN'T STOP! THOUGHTS RUN WILD WHILE THE CLOCK HANDS DROP! OVERCLOCKED! SYSTEM SHOCK, HEAD LOCKED! ONE MORE THOUGHT AND THE WHOLE THING POPS! RUN IT BACK! SPEED IT UP! BREAK THE LIMIT! NOT ENOUGH! OVERCLOCKED! OVERCLOCKED! I DON'T BREAK DOWN, I FUCKING SPEED UP! Funny thing about a mind that never shuts up... You spend your entire life trying to outrun it. Trying to think faster. Move faster. Become something faster. But the clock ain't chasing you. You're chasing the clock. SYSTEM ONLINE. OVERCLOCKED