The one no one chose

[Verse 1] I was the one standing just outside the door, Hoping you would see me, needing nothing more. I watched you give the love I prayed to call my own, And learned to hide my breaking heart alone. I tried to be enough, I tried to be so good, I swallowed all the words I thought I should. But no matter how I reached, how hard I tried to prove, I was always left still waiting to be chosen, to be loved. [Pre-Chorus] And now the clock is ticking, And the sky is turning grey, There's a thousand things inside me That I never got to say. [Chorus] I'm scared, I'm so scared tonight, My heart is breaking in the fading light. I spent my whole life reaching for your hand, Still trying to be someone you'd understand. And now you might be leaving, and I don't know what to do, Our last words weren't love, and I can't get back to you. I'm still that little girl who wanted to be enough, Still begging to be chosen, still starving for your love. [Verse 2] I wonder if you knew how deep the silence cut, How many times I cried when the world had given up. I never needed perfect, I never needed gold, Just a place inside your heart where I could safely hold. But someone else was precious in a way I couldn't be, And I kept on asking quietly, "Why not me? Why not me?" I told myself to carry on, to bury all the pain, But some wounds never close, they just learn to hide the rain. [Pre-Chorus] And now the hours whisper That I may have lost my chance, To say the words beneath my anger, To reach for one last dance. [Chorus] I'm scared, I'm so scared tonight, My heart is breaking in the fading light. I spent my whole life reaching for your hand, Still trying to be someone you'd understand. And now you might be leaving, and I don't know what to do, Our last words weren't love, and I can't get back to you. I'm still that little girl who wanted to be enough, Still begging to be chosen, still starving for your love. [Verse 3] I wish I'd said I love you before the door slammed shut, Before the hurt spoke louder than the tenderness in us. I wish I'd had the courage to let my anger rest, To lay my head upon your chest and tell you all the rest. But how do you forgive the years you can't undo? How do you say goodbye when there's so much left untrue? [Bridge] I'm angry that I'm hurting, I'm guilty that I'm sad, I'm grieving for you And the childhood that I never had. I'm frightened of tomorrow, Of a world where you're not here, And I'm drowning in the things I wish you'd lived to hear. I don't want to be the strong one, I don't want to be alone, Even now, beneath the heartbreak, Beneath the words we threw, There's a part of me still loving you, [Final Chorus] I'm scared, and my heart is breaking, I'm holding on while everything is shaking. I don't know if you can hear me through the night, Or if there's time to make the wrong words right. If you leave before I tell you what I couldn't say, Please know that I loved you, even when I turned away. [Outro] So if this is the ending, if these are our last days, I'll love you through the anger, through the hurt, through the haze. I wish our last words had been softer, I wish we'd had more time.