Between These Moments

[VERSE 1] I thought that blood was something stronger, Something time could never break, That when the world came crashing down, My family would stay awake. But I was standing in the wreckage, With nowhere left to run, Calling out to those I loved, And hearing nothing from anyone. [PRE-CHORUS] I never asked you to fix me, Never asked you to choose a side, I only needed someone beside me, Someone who wouldn't turn away and hide. [CHORUS] And somewhere between these moments, I became someone you could leave, Somewhere between the tears and silence, You stopped believing in me. I was drowning, I was breaking, And I needed you to see, But the hardest wound I've ever carried Was you not choosing me. [VERSE 2] My child, I held you when you were hurting, I was there through every storm, I gave you every piece of myself, Just to keep you safe and warm. And I never needed repayment, Never counted what I gave, But when I needed you beside me, You were nowhere when I prayed. [PRE-CHORUS] Maybe you were caught between us, Maybe you didn't know what to do, But there are some nights a mother wonders, How could I not matter to you? [CHORUS] And somewhere between these moments, I became someone you could leave, Somewhere between the tears and silence, You stopped believing in me. I was drowning, I was breaking, And I needed you to see, But the hardest wound I've ever carried Was you not choosing me. [VERSE 3] They say family means forever, That your roots will hold you tight, But roots can grow around a broken heart And still leave you alone at night. I searched their words for comfort, Found excuses in their eyes, And learned that sometimes people love you But still won't stand beside you when you cry. [BRIDGE] I won't ask you why anymore, I think I've asked enough. I won't beg you to understand How much this silence hurt. I will carry what you couldn't, I will heal what you could not see, And maybe one day I'll forgive you For not choosing me. [BREAKDOWN] I was your mother... I was your family... I was the one who needed you. Just once... I needed you to choose me. [FINAL CHORUS] And somewhere between these moments, I found the woman underneath, Still bruised by all the ones she loved, But finally learning how to breathe. You were the people I would die for, The ones I thought would never leave, And the deepest pain I'll ever carry Is that when I needed you... You didn't choose me. [OUTRO] So I'll walk between these moments, Leave the pieces where they fell, I may have lost the ones I needed, But I'm learning to save myself. And if you ever wonder where I went, Or why I had to leave... I was standing in the silence, Waiting for you to choose me.