bury / tsuina-chan lite

this song and dissonant descent were both finished in july, i just don't like making PVs sometimes, so i just put it off for months on end. it took me the better half of a decade to tell people about my chronic illnesses, and now i never shut up about it. i was an active activist in middle school, yet i never extended my activism towards myself. i refused to talk about my chronic illnesses because of how embarrassed i was about not being "normal". i threw myself into causes and protests that affected other people, and ran away from the ones that affected me, because i didn't want to admit that i was disadvantaged. that changed when i met someone open about their struggle with chronic illness. it wasn't the same one i had, but it made enough of an impact on me that i became much more open about my disabilities by the end of high school. if you're struggling with a chronic illness, talk about it. other people silently struggling with a similar illness will thank you. art by nienem/ulo04 on piapro https://piapro.jp/t/ew4i https://piapro.jp/nienem song by me vocals: tsuina-chan “ai” lite lyrics: wait i can't seem to hear what you're saying you'd think i'm losing my head to be honest someday i won't have to fear blue decaying in the teal of waiting i refuse to sit down so i compensate for conversation in the meantime i compensate for conversation from the picket lines i compensate for conversation from the right place i compensate for conversation just to save face take it slow, break a fast i forgot that it lasts but morally, i'm okay schedule me, i'm free sunday waste my time, so i won't have to deal with the weakness this weekend, the oblique incomplete and when it's done and said, i can't handle the price is the winter over yet? i could dance on the ice when hell seizes and freezes it's all falling to pieces and everybody sees it but they pretend they're blind just to steal my parking space there's no place for me it's faithless, wasted empathy it's dissonant, the way i bleed but i was so caught up in descent i forgot that most people are defiantly decent i can't compensate for conversation any longer i always wait for irritation to get stronger i'll conversate my limitations at the right time i'll conversate for conversation, not to feel "fine" it's all bleak, and complete the good doesn't leak naive and unique that's all that i need #synthv #vocaloid