I am tired of being tired

I’m tired of being tired. Not necessarily because anything catastrophic is happening, but because apparently just maintaining a human life requires an absurd amount of bandwidth. Eating well, going to the gym, replying to friends, keeping the house vaguely functional, thinking about the future, keeping up with work, immigration, AI, ageing, relationships, health, the environment… even tiny things seem to become another open loop in my brain. I started thinking about this while watching Morocco play the Netherlands. I was so happy when the underdog won that I realised I’m increasingly happy to outsource winning. I don’t want to fight every battle anymore. Sometimes I just want someone else to win and let me enjoy it vicariously. And then there’s the strange guilt of being exhausted when, objectively, I have plenty of time. I don’t have a corporate job right now. I’m not raising children. My dog sleeps eight hours a day. So why does existing still feel like work? Is this normal adulthood? I am tired of sitting on my couch too and I dont know what to do. All I know in my bones is, this aint just me, we are ALL tired of being tired 0:00 Tired of Being Tired 0:10 Morocco vs Netherlands 1:11 Generosity & Underdogs 2:18 Colonizers vs Underdogs 3:10 Outsourcing Winning 4:21 Why Am I So Tired? 5:04 Building a Body of Work 6:12 AI & Uncertain Futures 7:36 The Guilt of Being Tired 8:32 No Bandwidth Left 8:51 Diet & Supplements 10:40 The World Going to Trash 11:24 Overstimulated by Existence 12:15 Turning 30 13:16 Tired of Being Tired