gatekeeping

i stay and wait (stay and wait) i stay and wait (stay and—) helping me see what i could be you held me close then needed to breathe you always run and i stay and wait i know you're gone i still check the gate how can i escape the feeling i have? i get one good hour then i want you back your side stays cold i don't move across i get so tired of keeping your spot this feeling isn't one i'd give away to anyone, not anyone i almost call to tell you i'm okay then remember why i'm not you always run and i stay and wait another empty day, another day how can i escape, how can i escape? i still want you here, that's what i hate another empty lay, another hollow kiss another lie i say: i'm over it i wouldn't give this feeling to anyone not anyone, not even you i don't wish this on any son of a mother who thinks he's alright protective cover pulled up to my eyes she asks how i'm doing i tell her a lie my life is found lost on the ground i pick up my clothes then put them back down i am scared to see my life as it seems i keep sleeping late to shorten the week i let somebody kiss me in the hall i wonder if they know i'm somewhere else they ask me if i'm here with anyone i say i'm not, i say i'm not you always run and i stay and wait another empty day, another day how can i escape, how can i escape? i still want you here, that's what i hate another empty lay, another hollow kiss another lie i say: i'm over it i wouldn't give this feeling to anyone not anyone, not even you i pray to who? not you not it not her not him i don't know who i'm asking but i'm asking again you always run and i stay and wait another empty day, another day how can i escape, how can i escape? the door's not locked, so why am i afraid? another empty lay, another hollow kiss another lie i say: i'm over it i wouldn't give this feeling to anyone not anyone, not even you not anyone not even you i stay and wait i stay and—