The Price Of Freedom

Verse 1 I walked away with shaking hands, With nothing left to lose, I left behind the fear and lies, The life I never chose. I learned to sleep with one eye open, To listen for the sound, Of footsteps coming through the door, Of something breaking down. I traded walls that held me hostage For four walls of my own, I thought that freedom meant I’d finally Never be alone. But freedom has a cruelest cost That no one warned me of— You can escape the hands that hurt you And still lose what you love. Pre-Chorus So I ran from the darkness, I ran to save my life, But every step that took me farther Cut another piece inside. Chorus The price of freedom was my heart, The price was everything I knew, I saved myself from a life of fear But lost the road back to you. I had to disappear to survive, Had to leave without goodbye, And every mile between us Feels like a thousand knives. I escaped the man who frightened me, But freedom left its scar— The price of freedom was my heart, And you were where my heart was. Verse 2 My son, you were my reason, My little piece of light, The one thing I would fight for On every sleepless night. But if I come too close to you, He might discover where I am, And I cannot lead him to my door, I cannot risk his hands. So I love you from a distance, Where my arms cannot reach, I whisper all the words I wish That I could finally speak. I wonder if you know, my son, How often I say your name, How leaving you was never leaving— It was choosing life through pain. Pre-Chorus And nobody tells you freedom Can feel so much like grief, That saving your own life Can still make you feel you've failed to keep The person that you love the most, The child you’d die to save— So I carry you inside me Every single day. Chorus The price of freedom was my heart, The price was everything I knew, I saved myself from a life of fear But lost the road back to you. I had to disappear to survive, Had to leave without goodbye, And every mile between us Feels like a thousand knives. I escaped the man who frightened me, But freedom left its scar— The price of freedom was my heart, And you were where my heart was. Bridge If someday you ask me why I vanished from your life, I hope you hear the truth beneath The silence and the lies. I didn't leave because I stopped loving, I didn't turn away, I left because I finally understood I might not live another day. And if loving you meant staying, I'd have stayed until I died, But a mother has to breathe Before she can stand beside The child who means her everything, The reason she still fights— So I chose the road to somewhere safe, Even though it broke my life. Quiet Breakdown And I'm sorry, my son... For every birthday I may miss, For every door I cannot open, For every hug that doesn't exist. I'm sorry that protecting you Means loving you from far away. Please know I never stopped being your mother, Not for one single day. Final Chorus The price of freedom was my heart, And I paid it piece by piece, I found a way to breathe again, But I couldn't find my peace. I escaped the life that terrified me, But I lost the one I love, And there are wounds no freedom heals, No matter what you've run from. So if you ever wonder where I am, I'm somewhere fighting to be free, Carrying your name inside my chest, Where you'll always belong to me. I may be hidden from the world, But my love will never hide— I'll love you through the distance, I'll love you through the night. Outro I escaped the man who frightened me, I escaped the life of fear... But the price of freedom was my heart— Because losing you Was the deepest wound I carried with me here.