No Escape

[Verse 1] I watched myself float up to the ceiling, Leaving behind every heavy feeling. When the walls closed in and the shadows grew, Stepping outside of my skin was what I had to do. It was cold out there in the quiet space, Far away from his voice, far from his face. I thought if I wasn’t inside to take the blow, The damage would stop, and the pain would slow. So I locked the door and I threw the key, And left an empty shell where I used to be. [Chorus] And it worked—oh, it worked for a little while, I wore armor made of absence, I forced a ghost-like smile. To survive the storm, I had to not exist, To vanish from the room before the strike could hit. I thought escaping my own body was the price to pay, To keep the terror and the agony at bay. [Verse 2] But safety was a trick, a fragile little lie, You can't outrun a ghost when you're the one who died. Now the distance is real, the walls are all my own, He’s far away, and I’m finally alone. So why is the quiet louder than his screams? Why is the waking world worse than my worst dreams? Without the numbness to wrap around my chest, The memories arrive and put my sanity to the test. [Chorus] Now the armor's gone, and the shock has worn away, And I’m forced to live through every single yesterday. Feeling all the hurt that I refused to feel back then, Living through the nightmares over and over again. I had to leave myself to keep from breaking in two, Now I’m back inside... and I don't know what to do. [Bridge] Every second repeats like a broken frame, Every corner of the room whispers his name. The terror I avoided, it was waiting in the dark, Holding all the ash from every single spark. I saved myself from him by locking up my soul, Now the ghost has come back to collect the heavy toll. [Outro] I’m back in my body, but the war's not won, The pain is finally here, and it's just begun. Reliving every second, over and over, No place to hide, no way to run over. Just me... and the hurt I left behind.