Relapse - Depry January

RELAPSE *[Intro – Clean / Atmospheric]* I thought I buried this beneath the ground Thought I finally left it all behind But in the quiet, when nobody's around I hear that fucking voice inside my mind One step forward Two steps back I feel the weight Of everything I lacked *[Verse 1 – Melodic Metalcore]* I spent so long rebuilding Every piece I threw away I told myself I'm different I swore I'd never be the same But the cracks beneath the surface Never really disappeared I only learned to hide them I never learned to face my fears And now I'm back here again Staring at the mess I made *[Pre-Chorus – Rising]* I know this road I know where it goes I've walked it a thousand times before I hear the warning But I keep ignoring The voice screaming, “Don't open that door” *[Chorus – Clean + Screams]* I *RELAPSE* Back into the darkness I escaped I *RELAPSE* Every time I think I've changed I fought so hard to leave this behind But the past keeps crawling through my mind I thought I was finally fucking free But it still has a hold on me *[Verse 2 – Rap Metal]* Yeah! Here we go again, same fucking cycle Same temptation wearing a different title I said I'm done, I said I'm clean But my own reflection knows what I mean I built these walls just to tear them down Put on a smile while I drowned underground Everybody thinks that I'm doing fine While I'm fighting with myself every night I know the damage I know the cost I know exactly Everything I've lost But when that voice comes back And starts whispering my name I lose control And step straight into the flames *[Pre-Chorus – Screamed]* I KNOW THIS ROAD! I KNOW THIS PAIN! I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I'M ABOUT TO BECOME AGAIN! *[Chorus – Full Band]* I *RELAPSE* Back into the darkness I escaped I *RELAPSE* Every time I think I've changed I fought so hard to leave this behind But the past keeps crawling through my mind I thought I was finally fucking free But it still has a hold on me *[Bridge – Clean / Emotional]* Maybe healing isn't straight Maybe falling doesn't mean I've failed Maybe every broken piece Can still be put together again I hate the person I become when I lose control But I won't let one more failure Define my soul *[Build-Up – Whisper → Scream]* I FALL! I BREAK! I LOSE MY WAY! BUT I'M STILL HERE! I FALL! I BREAK! I MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE! *BUT I'M NOT FUCKING DEAD!* *[Breakdown – Heavy]* *RELAPSE!* BACK TO THE START! *RELAPSE!* TEAR ME APART! I KNOW THIS FUCKING FEELING! I KNOW WHERE THIS WILL LEAD! BUT I'LL RIP THESE CHAINS *OUT OF ME!* *[Final Chorus – Huge / Melodic]* I *RELAPSE* But I won't stay where I fell I *RELAPSE* But I won't surrender to this hell Every scar is proof I survived Every failure means I'm still alive I may fall back into the dark But I'll find my way back to the start *[Outro – Clean / Emotional]* Maybe tomorrow I'll fall again Maybe I'll lose myself again But if I do... I'll get back up. Because relapse Doesn't mean the end.