Wanting to Progress in my 26 Year of Life

Making Fantasies Come True: One Story at a Time… I am officially 26 and I feel as if I haven’t progressed in my career of being a full-time author. When I look at my life, I think to myself, “Is this where I am supposed to be in life?” “Am I happy where I am?” Now I have been reading a book called Perfectly Yourself by Matthew Kelly. It is a book to help you discover God’s dream for you. And within the book, Matthew asks a lot of great questions about your life and how to pursue your dream life. I also watched a video where the person who made it… I don’t remember who made it, but it was talking about looking at your life and asking yourself in five years would you be happy if this was your life. Now for me, I have this huge aspiration to become a sister. I want to become a sister. I feel as if I have a calling to it, but I hesitate because of my mental health and I worry because of my multiple personalities. I don’t know where I am going with this, but I just want to take more steps to become the best version of myself, something that Matthew often talks about in his books. And I feel as if I am taking the right steps, but I also know that I can’t keep living in this town. The people are great but there is also a lot of pain here, especially since I don’t have a job and I am often left alone with my thoughts that are not always the most uplifting. Now, don’t get me wrong, these thoughts aren’t telling me to do anything. I have been doing a lot better than I was two years ago. But I need to take steps to become the best version of myself. So, moving for the month of October, and hopefully for the rest of my life with a couple weeks' vacation, I am going to live my life doing the things that make me happy in a way that will benefit me. Now I know there are going to be moments where I will slip up because of my mental health. And I need to get back to communicating with them because I have been ignoring them lately which is not very healthy. So, I need to get back to journalling and allowing them to express their emotions and feelings. I am also going to treat my writing as a job… I have been doing good at writing most days. But I want to spend days as if writing is my 9-5 job. Well maybe not 9-5 exactly. But I want to slowly work to at least working from 9-4. Now I will still see my grandma and Dad, but after I am done seeing them, I need to work on my book, because I am behind on JJ’s Project and on my 160-Day Challenge and I would like to get back on track and hopefully get this book done early. Then on my spiritual journey, I want to pray at least 2 rosaries a day. I have been trying to do this the last several days, but when I ended up getting sick. I ended up not praying for three days. I just need to get back on the horse and dedicate my life to God and His dream for me. I also want to continue to read my spiritual books and go to mass, while also teaching for CCD. I could go on and on about all the things I want to do. But I am going to live my life to improve my life in every way possible. Because I am tired of feeling as if every day is the same day and as if time doesn’t pass. I want to be different. I want to be healthy. I want to be whole. And right now, I feel divided. So that is the way that I want to live my life moving forward. And as for the month of September, I had a relatively successful month. I read 6 books, I wrote over 30K, my view and watch hours have been growing, and I went down to therapy every 3 weeks instead of every other. So, I have been progressing, I just want to continue to grow and blossom into who I am meant to be. Well, that is all I got to say. I want to improve my life moving forward and become a full-time author who actually gets paid. I just have so many dreams, and I want to live life to the fullest. And if you are someone who also wants to live life to the fullest leave a star emoji in the comments and tell me how your month went. I hope you all have a lovely day, and remember to keep making fantasies come true, one story at a time… and I will see you next time… bye.